hanoz zehanm pore shamaye foot nakarde ziadi hast .. bavaret mishe .. garmash dare har shab delamo bad jori atish mizane ... aslan chera bayad footesh konam ... midoni age sale dige ham kasi baram sham nayvord che kar konam ...negahesh midaram .. mizaram baghale tah sigare akhari ke azat daram ... boye gande tah sigare ba shiriniye labat ghati shode o maghzam ro dare mondahdem mikone ,,, mese vaghti oghato poore boye sigar kardi o babat yeho mirese , shoro mikoni shishe atro khali kardan to boye tanafose otagh , shit badesh che booei gandi mizane bala ...maghzam alan hamon bo ro mide ... vase hamin payroz papichet nashodam ... 4 rooze natonestam chesham az ro asket bardaram ... ajibe . avalin aksi hast ke azat migiram va toye dorbin negah nemikoni .. ama negaheto khob toye ein ask mishnasam ... ba chehat migi bia shamaro foot kon ... 2 sal shame foot nakarde ro dastet monde ba hezar ta khaterey por rango kam rang ke dari donbale khodet mikeshonishon ...

salamati ... emshab salamatie shamaye foot nashode daram mikhoram ... be nazaret mishe to cheshaye to negah kardo hameye shamaye donya ro foot kard ? mishe ama bayad bazam sabr dasht ... yadete ye dafe ye shokolat ro baham k hordim ... gozashtim beyne labamon ta akharesh khordim ta be labaye ham residim ... on maze hich vaght az ro labam narafte ... bade  on dige hich vaght snickers nakhordam ... mibini cheghad ahmagham .. haghae hich shami natonam foot konam ... kheyli mikham bedonam ein ghadi ke man chim yadame to ham yadete ? yadete avalin bar koja behet akhm kardam ... sare classe norma .. yaghat ye khorde baz bood ... lol donyaei bod ... che chizaei mishod baese khoshhali ya narahati ... avalin bar ke subway khordam to baram ovordi ...

begzarim .. mibini ta velam mikonan miram soraghe gozashte .. akhe kheyli ghashang bood ... to ashegham boodi .. kheyli lezat bakhsh bod ehsase kasi ro dashtan ...

cheghad chiz to maghzam bod vaghti mikhastam shoro konam be neveshtan ama ta shoro kardan chenan ghargh shodamdar gozashte ke hame chi yadam raft ... az 4 shanbe saate 2:45 min dige ta alan hich khabari azat nadaram ... rastesho begam motmaen bodam emroz hatman zang mizani ama khob miodni gereftari midonam ... einghad gereftari ke manam entezar nadaram ... man ba fekretam delam khooshe ...

ghablana to az man mitarsidi hala man az to mitarsam .. emshab hamid zang zad beram onja , goft ba sahar khoreshe gorme sabzi dorost kardan beram onja bokhoram ... lol .. mikhastam begam to go nemishe .. polesham hazer bodam bedam ... ama khob delam naymad kari konam to khoshet nayad ...

delam havaye sham fooot kardan karde ... hanoz omid daram ta ghable einke shanbe tamom she khabari az to biad ... alan einja tarikhe yekshanbe mizane chon be zamane iran tarikh mizane ama alan saate 10: 35 min shab hast va shanbe ham hast hanoz .. asri baron  miyomad .. sigaramo roshan kardan raftam to balkon neshastam o bahat ye sigar keshidam .. to roberom neshaste booodi . mese ghadima negaham mikardi .. 1000 ta chiz be negahet behem migoofti ... man ye khatareye khob hastam barat khodam midonam ... man baraye to yek khatare shdam to baraye hame zendegi ...

fekram masmom shode .. bayad sari bebaramesh DR ta ozash kheyli kharab nashode ... shayad DR netone beyne tamome on kam mhalia to ein yek salo nim va 1 sale ghablesh va ein roza ye rabete peyda kone o fekre mano az khatare marg nejat bede ...

to maghzam pore omid hast , pore delshore , pore alamte soal , pore delvapasi , pore entezar , pore khahesh , pore sabori , .....

bia baraye zange tafrih chand ta sham foot konim ... yekisho man foot mikonam yekisho to ...

delam mikhad beshinim baghale ham , baham abjo bokhorim baham sigar bekeshim . bad saaatha baham harf bezanim ... delam lak zade vase chand saate sedato shenidan ...

Ma shakiba bodim va einast kalami ke be tamami mishavad mara tosif kard ....

ein male shamlou bood ... hanozam googoosh ghosh nemikoni ... yadete ye bar bastani rikhti ro konam ...yani shortamo zadi kenar bad bastani rikhti tooosh bad gazam gerefti .. shit cheghad gharo ghati daram harf mizanam .. yek saat0 10 min be 12 monde .. ye mas bede jane man ... delam khosh beshe , delam man kocike mese ye bache ghoonjeshk , khodet ke midoni ...

shirin delam barat tang shode ... mikham sedato beshnavam .,., ghol midam hich shami foot nakonam pas einghad montazeram nazar ...

i miss you

i love you

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nemidoni che hessi khobi daram vaghti behet fekr mikonam ... cheghadr arooooom hastam vaghti ehsas mikonam toro daram ... cheghad zendeghim khobe hata vaghti ba fekre ye roozi zire ye saghf ba to bodam hastam ...

shirin nemidoni che ehsase arameshi daram az bad zoohr ke ba to harf zadam ... ye chizi ke hamishe delam engar dar shoor mizad , alan aroome aroome ... nemidonam che razi hast to ein ke vaghti hata ein jorato be khodam midam ke ehsas mikonam tooro daram einghad aramesh behem dast mide ...

shirin , delam barat tang shoode .. delam mikhad sedato beshnavam .. midonam har ja hasti ye kocholo ham shode be man fekr kardi ...

i love you

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جونمی ... مگه نمیدونی ؟

مگه از چشام نمیخونی ؟

بد جور داری دل منو پای خودت میسوزونی

تو همه ی کسم شدی

من واسه تو میمیرم و

                               تو اعتنا نمیکنی

آخرشم میاد یکروز که میری تنهام میذاری

الانشم که اینجایی کاری به کارم نداری

دارو ندارم مال تو

                هر چی که دارم مال تو

فقط بگو چشمای تو ,

                          از جون من چی میخواد ؟

بذار بگم عاشقتم , بذار بگم دوست دارم

شاید بتونم روزهای بی تو رو طاقت بیارم

دلم برات تنگ شده باز ,

                                میخوام باهات حرف بزنم

نمیدونم چه جور باید یکروز ازت دل بکنم

قسمت ما جدایی نیست ,

                                بذار بمونیم واسه هم

کاش میتونستی ببینی که من جقدر دیوونتم

بذار بهت ثابت کنم ,

                     با نفست جون میگیرم

بذار که توی دستهای تو ,

                           یه ذره آروم بگریم

جونمی ... مگه نمیدونی ؟

مگه از چشام نمیخونی ؟

بد جور داری دل منو پای خودت میسوزونی

تو همه ی کسم شدی

من واسه تو میمیرم و

                               تو اعتنا نمیکنی .....

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ba che zogho shoghi omadam khone .. behtare begam davidam ta khone ke shayad paye com bashi ... ke shayad baazam web bedi ... ke bazam bebinamet ... ama khob ein tori shod dige ... ...

khodemonim kasi einja nist ... bad jori konam sokht . ama fadaye saret .. hamin ke to khoshhal bashi man raziam ..

 

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تا دوباره دیدن تو , دست و رویم را نخواهم شست ....

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khodaya shokret baraye shirin

khooooooooooooodaya shokret ... ein hame doam mese einke yebar mostajab shod .... bavaram nemishe to shirino be man pas dadi ... khoda dige azam nagiresh , degh mikonam ... khodaaaaaaaaaaaaaya rin hamon chizi hast ke man goftam age behem bedi dige hichi azat nemikham ... mersi dobare shirino to baghalam didam ... dobare tonestam to cheshash negah konam ,,, khodaaaaaaa shokret

mersi khodaya ke az shirine man chizi shirin tar to donya khalagh nakardi ... mersi ke az naz tar o latif chiizi to donya nist va to ono be man dadi ...

shirin 2 sal zajr keshidam ta emrozo bebinam ... dige tanham nazaria ... donyya ro be pat mirizam ... hame nafasaye zendegimo be pat mirizam ... donya ro barat miaram ... akhare omram khodam nokaretam ...

shirin dige tanham nazaria ... na asllan fekresham nemikham bokonam ... shirin dige ta akhare omram bayad male bashi ... hame shabay rozaye omram mikham to cheshaye to negah konam ... badaneto boo konam ... toro dino eimanet dige mano vel nakon ..

i love u to death

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midoni shirin einja behratin jaye donyast ... tanha jaei hast ke mitonam khodam basham ... einja majbor nisti baraye kasi film bazi konam ... majbor nistam ghable harf zadan fekr konam .. einja majbor nistam be kasi tozih bedam chera man einam ... chera man ein karo mikonam ... midoni chera aslan man ashgeh to shodam ?

to avalin va tanha kasi bodi ke roze aval mano on jori ke bodam khasti  .. gofti to har chi beposhe ghashange ... mohat har jori bashe ghashange ... gofti heykalet alan behtarine ... sedamo bavar kardi ... to gofti be man to bad nisti aslan faghat aslan mese adamaye dige nisti ... to gofti kasi ke mese hich kas nist man hastam .. yadete ? fekr konam  yadete ... ba hameye donya fargh dashti vase man ... age mast mikardam ghah ghah mikhandidam pabepam bodi ... age gerye miakrdm baghalet amn tarin jaye donya bod baram ... age gham bod to sine to tanha kasi ke harfamo ghoosh mikardi .. harfamo bavar mikardi ..

ba  negahet saatha mishod harf zad ... to baghalet mishod zendegi kard ...

on roozi hame chi avaz shod ke to masalam aghale shodi ... cheshat baz tar shod ... dige man on hayajano barat nadashti .. yeki mikhastyi ghavi bashe ... por zoor .. mohkam tar az man bashe .. kholase ghabele tekiyeghah tar az man bashe ... to avaz shodi na man ... man hamon gooohe roze aval boodam .. to az avale avalesham hamin tori bod ama donyaye jazabe man toro toye khodesh ghargh karde bod ta rafti iran .. ein faseleye 2 mah toro dobare bidar kard ... didi sedaye ghashangh barat nono ab nemishe ... ya kheyli chizaye dige ... avallin shoke ke shoro kard cheshaye mano baz kone raftane tadrijiye to bood ... zare zare bavar kardam zendegi oni nist ke man fahmidam ... man yad gereftam ...

ye roz behem mas dadi neveshte DONYAYE AJIBO KHEYLI GHARIBI HAST BA ADAMAYE GHARIB , TOYE HAMIN DONY TO TANHA KASI KE MIKHAM , BISHTAR AZ HAR KASO HAR CHZIZI ,,,

Yadete ?

man zare zare kheyli avaz shodam ... zendgi yadam dad ke sang besham ke bi rahm besham ke ghavi besham ... bad az mordabi ke baraye khodam 1-2 mah dorost kardam azash omadam biron ... shoro kardam mese baghiye basham ,, khodam dasht yadam miraft dige kam kam  ... ta shanbe toro didam ... hanozam tanha chizi ke tamome sakhtiye mano be bad mide negahe to hast ,,, har chi ghodrat sakhte bodam vase khodam to ein 3-4 mah ba ye negah be cheshamt to wallmart shanbe 7 sobh be bad raft ... az dishab shoro shod divone bodanam ... baz hata mikhastam beram beshasham mobilam baghalam bod ... sobh az ezterab saat 7 bidar shodam ... sare kar emroz tamome modat negaham be daro poshte shishe bod ke to biay .. 100 bar to ghoosham zang mobile pichid .. fekr mikardam to zang zadi ya mas dadi ... maghzam kar nemikard baz ... jooz negahe to chizi jeloye chesham nabod ...

dellam nemikad ein jori basham .. delam nemikhad dobare sobh ta shab chesham entezar basham .. delam nemikhad hamash ye chizi toye badanam belarze ,,, az ein ezterab mitarsam ,,, dahst hame chi normal mishod ... chera bayad man dobare biam wall mart ..

shirine zibate man .. man  tavane vahshatnaki baraye kharej shodan az ein gerdab dadam 4-5 mah pish .. nemikahm baz shoro koanm ... dobare esme shirin shode nafasam . shode shabo roozam .. are shirin man asheghetam .. az 6 feb 2006 ke didamet ta emroz bodam .. hich chiz hata tamame namardihaye to natonest mano az eshghe to monsaref kone ... ama mitarsam .. age baz bekham velam koni hala be har dalili man baz chi kar konam ?

age rozaye digam mese emroz saatha natonam hta sedaei azat beshanama baz be fuck miram ke ... age farda bazam buzzy bodi ? age rozaye dige nakhasti ya natonesti ba man sohbat koni ya mas bedi ya bebinamet. on moghe chi kar konam ?

baz hame chi az aval ? einghadr ahmagh hasti ke hata nemishe ein harfa ro behet zad ... ta begam shoro mikoni rabete ro kam kardan ya rasman dodare kardam ama mage dige farghi mikone ?  on chizi ke nabayad mishod shod ... man negaheto didam ... man dastato nevazesh kardam .. man labato bosidam ...

cheraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa man einghad asheghe to hastam ? vaghan chera ? kojaye tarikhe jahan ye dokhtare einghad kharo madare ye pesar ro gaeide va on pesar alan delesh dar bal bal mizane ye mas bedi hata ... tavagho ziadi hast ? dige mitarsam behet harfi bezanam... nemikham dige az dastet bedam ba eiunke midonam asheghe man nisti .... midonam ke ashegheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee man nisti ...

kheyli talkhe ama haghighat dare .. hich vaght ashge man nabodi .. mano dost dashti ama ashegham nabodi .. age  bodi ein jori tishe be risheye man o zendegim nemizadi ... ye nafar faghat ye nafaro biar to donya ke mese man paye to vaysade ? to migi ashegeh hadi bodi ya mese man ke paye to vaysadam ba einhame bala ke saram ovordi paye on bodi ? age bodi man khafe misham ... harfat karat ke baraye nabodane man mizadi hanoz yadame ... khobam yadame ... on roz dame mashinet dame wall mart gofti manam asheghe ye kasi bodam shayad mese to ke alan asheghe man hasti ... behem goofti to mard nisti ... zare zare nabod shodam ba har ye ghadami ke zadi pishe mikelle ama baazam mondam ... kari be aghalet naresid ke nabod ke nakoni ke mano farari bedi ama pat vaysadam .. tamame gozasheteye mano atish zadi bazam pat vaysadam ... emroz bazam manam ke gedaei bodane toro mikonam ... sobh tahala ghade 1 min vaght nadashti ye zang bezani ? hatman nadashti ... einja darde del mikonam ba ein kaghaza be to ke chizi nemigam ... bayad adaye adamaye saboro dar biaram ke onam hata sakhet ...

az  sobh ye ghame ajibi toye delam hast ... bad jori delam gerefte ... be ki begam ama ... kiye ke hata hazer bashe be harfaye dele man ghoosh kon e ..

bazam delam pore ghame ... dealm bazam mikhadet ,,, chizi ke hata chand mahe jorat nemikardam be khodam begam....

Baraye tanhaei khodam delam misoze

baraye ein hame entezar ... baraye ein hame eshgh ke nesbatbe to daram ...baraye rezaei  ke dar rahe dashtane to fana shod .. dige hich chizi azash namonde  ...baraye rezaei ke har negahet 3 sale zendegi mikone ... ba sedat harf mizane .., baraye rezaei ke joz to hich vaghat hich havasi nadashte ....

doset daram shirin

delam barat tang shode

that's it

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دللللللللللللللللللللللم میخواد صداتو بشنوم همین الان

بیا میخوام بغلت کنننننننننننننننننننم

شیرین .......

شیرین ..........

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i miss u

hame chi mese ye khabe ghashange ... mikham bavar konam ke khab nistam .. mikham bavar konam dastat emroz mese khabam nabode ke tamom shodan zood ... vase hamin einghad seft gerefte bodamet .. mikhastam hata age khabam hastam vaghi bidar misham to natoni az pisham beri ... delam mikhast  mishod ba ye tanab ya zanjir khodamo behet bebandam ke dige nari az pisham .... are azizam delam barat tang shode ... delam mikhast behet zang bezanam baz sedato beshnavam ... bazam dastamo begiri... to baghalam fesharet bedam ... labato bebosam ...

hanoz bavar nimikonam baz didamet .. fekr mikardam hich vaght dige nemibinamet .. to ein 3-4 mah hata jorat nakardam biam wallmart yebar bebinamet ... faghat ba chesham to khiabona donbale mashine germez mighasht ...

shirin bavar konam ke baz emroz pishe man bodi ? bavar konam dobare dastato gerfte bodam...bavar konam ba emroz dastat roye mohaye sineham tekon mikhooooord ... na nemitounam . mese ye khabe ... ye rooyaye ghashangh ... bade 2 sal emroz baz ye chizi to badanam arom hast ... hese ajibi toye maghzo ostekhonam hast ...

khodaaaaaaaaaaaaya yani haghighate ? khooooooodaya dari baham shokhi mikoni ?

khoda man digeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ein dafe taghat nadaram ... azyatam nakonam khodaya ... khodaya yani bavar konam shirin pishe man bod emroooz bod ?

shirin , bad jori gij hastam ... toye faza hastam ... nemifahmi che heseeeeeeei daram alan ... nemidonam che esmi roye eshsasm bezaram ... badanam goor gerefte ./.. bad jori dagh hast ... yani khabam dorost bode ? yani ein hame to khab didam ke hame chi boilshit boode , pas haghigahte ya einam ye baziye jadide ???????????

khodaya chi kar konam ? age einam ye bazi jadid bashe chi ? age  befahmam baz dorogh goofte behem chi kar konam ? naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa khodaya . ein dafe dige taghat nadaram .

khodaya komakam kon ....

دلم برات تتگ شده . کاش میشد الان باز ببینمت ...

 

پس از آن غروب رفتن , اولین طلوع من باش

من رسیدم رو به آخر , تو بیا شروع من باش

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